I would like to formally apologize for my behavior towards you, both in private, and in public. It was rather uncalled for, and while I could not control myself very well the last time we were face to face, that is no excuse for how I spoke to you over the network.
I am feeling rather... raw. You have seen sides of me that very few have seen, been made privy to information no one else knows, including those whom I consider to be life-partners. I ask that you forgive my anger and defensiveness over such things, and that you accept my apology for the disrespect I have shown you.
I would like to make it up to you. Please let me know if and when you are willing to talk.
[ The reply takes some time, but not for any lingering anger. Rather, it's much easier for Angelica to apologize than to answer an apology. ]
There's no need. Though I was taken aback by your behavior, you were never under any obligation to accept my apology for what occurred. If you had simply been so honest from the start, I would have freely given you the time and space you required, and been less vehement in my argument.
In any case, I do not say as much to further berate you. I would rather leave the matter behind us entirely, so there is no need for you to make anything up to me. Simply agreeing not to let such things color our perceptions of one another is enough to satisfy me.
Having said that, I would like to extend another apology as well. Even at the time, it hadn't been my intention to force you to relive such traumatic memories. Unfortunately, such specifics are not something the spell allows me control over. Though I understand if you do not want them, you have my sympathies in that matter.
Regardless of the circumstances, even now I accept your apology. My ego had gotten the better of me, blinded me with emotions I have been struggling to keep in check since my arrival in Ryslig, but I still know that you never caused me pain out of malice.
If it is alright with you, I would appreciate it if we could, perhaps, start over? Perhaps a friendship is much to ask at this point, and with everything that has happened between us in such a short time. Yet, even if I was obstinate, your advice during our first interaction was thought-provoking. You offer a genuine perspective that I respect, even if my behavior has led you to believe otherwise.
I appreciate your sympathies, and while I do not know the full circumstance of your previous life, you have mine as well. For what it is worth, I admire your courage, Angelica. For all my centuries, you are far more resolute than I am.
So, I apologize for showing you such a shameful side of me, and I hope it does not have you think less of me for it. I hope that we are able to salvage this relationship, but I understand if you would not want to associate with someone who has disrespected you so profoundly.
I can't deny that I have felt patronized by your comments on my age, and I've said as much already. Nonetheless, our first meeting hadn't left me with the impression that you were an unpleasant or intolerable person, merely one who may have grown too accustomed to regarding others from a position of superiority. I don't mean that as a judgment, but rather
You reminded me of the magi of my world, so I suppose I may have made presumptions about you, as well. In any case, I believe that is the source of the similarities that exist between us, so if you wished to speak again, I would not dislike it.
I appreciate your sympathies as well, but I cannot help but feel they are somewhat misspent. The life that requires them is already lost to me, and it had never offered me any choice but to stand by my decisions. Even so, thank you.
I, perhaps, am a product of circumstance in many ways. Prior to my coming to Ryslig, the times I interacted with anyone who was not of the same background and social standing as me numbered very few. I am still having to adjust myself and my perceptions of others when it comes to making... first impressions.
[Which is his way of saying he is trying(?) to be less xenophobic. How nice of him.]
But you would not be the first to say I am reminiscent of the magisters of another world. [And he's still unsure of how he feels about it.] Regardless, I am glad that you realize I am not those people you knew before.
I very much would like to speak to you again, perhaps, with a little less prejudice in my mind. Is there a time of day that works for you? Or would you like to meet once more when the winter activities come to town?
[ "Those people," is it. It makes it sound as if she isn't one of them, but in a way, she supposes she isn't anymore. Her role changed quite a bit with her death. ]
I truly hope you are right about that. I have had enough of their ways simply by being born to a magus bloodline.
An acquaintance of mine has come to me with some garments in need of modification. Perhaps we could meet during the holiday, so that I may finish with them swiftly.
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<Archmage>
I would like to formally apologize for my behavior towards you, both in private, and in public. It was rather uncalled for, and while I could not control myself very well the last time we were face to face, that is no excuse for how I spoke to you over the network.
I am feeling rather... raw. You have seen sides of me that very few have seen, been made privy to information no one else knows, including those whom I consider to be life-partners.
I ask that you forgive my anger and defensiveness over such things, and that you accept my apology for the disrespect I have shown you.
I would like to make it up to you. Please let me know if and when you are willing to talk.
Sincerely,
Eridanus Sungazer
<Angelica>
There's no need. Though I was taken aback by your behavior, you were never under any obligation to accept my apology for what occurred. If you had simply been so honest from the start, I would have freely given you the time and space you required, and been less vehement in my argument.
In any case, I do not say as much to further berate you. I would rather leave the matter behind us entirely, so there is no need for you to make anything up to me. Simply agreeing not to let such things color our perceptions of one another is enough to satisfy me.
Having said that, I would like to extend another apology as well. Even at the time, it hadn't been my intention to force you to relive such traumatic memories. Unfortunately, such specifics are not something the spell allows me control over. Though I understand if you do not want them, you have my sympathies in that matter.
<Archmage>
If it is alright with you, I would appreciate it if we could, perhaps, start over? Perhaps a friendship is much to ask at this point, and with everything that has happened between us in such a short time. Yet, even if I was obstinate, your advice during our first interaction was thought-provoking. You offer a genuine perspective that I respect, even if my behavior has led you to believe otherwise.
I appreciate your sympathies, and while I do not know the full circumstance of your previous life, you have mine as well. For what it is worth, I admire your courage, Angelica. For all my centuries, you are far more resolute than I am.
So, I apologize for showing you such a shameful side of me, and I hope it does not have you think less of me for it. I hope that we are able to salvage this relationship, but I understand if you would not want to associate with someone who has disrespected you so profoundly.
<Angelica>
You reminded me of the magi of my world, so I suppose I may have made presumptions about you, as well. In any case, I believe that is the source of the similarities that exist between us, so if you wished to speak again, I would not dislike it.
I appreciate your sympathies as well, but I cannot help but feel they are somewhat misspent. The life that requires them is already lost to me, and it had never offered me any choice but to stand by my decisions. Even so, thank you.
<Archmage>
[Which is his way of saying he is trying(?) to be less xenophobic. How nice of him.]
But you would not be the first to say I am reminiscent of the magisters of another world. [And he's still unsure of how he feels about it.] Regardless, I am glad that you realize I am not those people you knew before.
I very much would like to speak to you again, perhaps, with a little less prejudice in my mind. Is there a time of day that works for you? Or would you like to meet once more when the winter activities come to town?
<Angelica>
I truly hope you are right about that. I have had enough of their ways simply by being born to a magus bloodline.
An acquaintance of mine has come to me with some garments in need of modification. Perhaps we could meet during the holiday, so that I may finish with them swiftly.
<Archmage>
I would like that, Angelica.
I will be in the market throughout the festivities, shopping for presents for my loved ones.
It would be nice if we could run into each other, so I'll keep on the look out for you.
[And perhaps ask her more about her magic then.]